Its December 31st

And we are at home, and believe it or not, I am AOK with that.  Four children snuggled safely in their beds, my husband next to me reading and I have a glass of wine and hopes of a little 19 Kids and Counting in my future.  My house, its messy.  Not dirty, just messy.  My mind, its swirling but overall, I am happy to be here in my home. 

Its been a long time coming that I can easily say I am in my "home".  When we arrived, on our new East Coast Adventure, I hated it.  I would complain on a daily basis and sadly, my seven year old has taken on my ability to turn the smallest mole hill into a giant mountain.  Just in this past year, I have been able to consider this place home.  Maybe it was the new baby, he made me reach out to others.  Maybe in that reaching out I grew enough to consider myself home.  Maybe I finally realized HOME isn't where you want to be but where you are.  With your family.  Whatever it is, this is the first year, that as the clock strikes midnight, I will feel okay, at home.

Earlier this week I wrote about my new changes in 2012.  Funny thing, I have already changed one thing.  You know the great thing about getting ahead on resolutions????  You can change them before Carson Daly stands amidst ticker tape and glittering lights and amend your plans so they fit your life. 

Two night ago, as I sat eating prunes and drinking a beer (tasted better than it sounds--I think), I decided to join Weight Watchers Online.  Before Jessica Simpson sold out and got pregnant again (Congrats to her!  Its a blessing and she makes beautiful babies), I figured if she could do it while being a busy working mom, I could do it being a busy, stay at home, homeschooling mom...so I began. 

Yesterday was my first full day on Weight Watchers, and I know some of you are saying "you aren't THAT overweight" and you are right.  I am not "THAT" overweight but I have a history of weight issues in my family, I have a history of heart issues in my family, I have a heart defect (doh), and I make choices that are less than advantageous for my svelte 5'6 frame. 

Yesterday, full points on Droid, I set to work calculating my food intake, and to be honest, it wasn't so hard.  Armed with a cart full of green beans, carrots, celery and other fresh veggies I made my way through Stop and Shop vowing to snack better to live better.  Upon arrival home, I ended up washing and dicing all the veggies for easy eating, and by the end of the day I felt good ( a little hungry) but good.  I also decided since I am going to do Weight Watchers, I can CAREFULLY eat a few sweets.  Tonight, since its New Year's Eve and we all know I party hard, I had four Hershey Kisses.  Though I don't like them, I may have to look into Three Musketeers...that chick in the commercial I used to see was always dancing on air when she ate hers so perhaps its on the free point list ;) 

In any case, tonight, I am winding down, red wine in hand and I am hopeful.  Hopeful that 2013 brings happiness, health and hope because it sure seems we could all use a bit of that!